Psychological distress...but God was there...

"I couldn't help but kept staring at the bright green EXIT sign flashing insistently before my eyes as I forced my soul to purge out some answers. That green light seemed especially glaring that very hour. It's just amazing how I never notice that sign despite stepping into that exact same seminar room countless of times. The step towards the sign was just so tempting. The light veered smugly at me...Alright...time to change my line of focus! I shifted my concentration back to my script. My mind was in a state of blank. Rahhhh~! The time silently ticked by.
Minute by minute, second by second.
God, you got to create some miracle for me now!"

The above extract is a psychological reaction from a distressing test I just had in the afternoon. Haha. It was a horrible test...*yikes*. A test that require me to pray for an extraneous amount of God's grace to bring me through. Sighhh..the test really had a way of bringing my mood to an all-time low of the day =X I sat down on a bench after class and prayed.

God, You know how I feel...
open my eyes to a new perspective..
with a new attitude...
to see things the way You do..

And God is ultimately good! He said and reminded me: It's all about beating the system...He reminded me about what Gershon said. He reminded me about Xinhong's testimony. Just work smarter and do better for the finals and your term paper..He brought faith and hope, a shimmer of light into my dark discouraged heart. At that instant, I feel encouraged. I feel joy. I feel faith arise. It's alright man. It's over. What's 20%! Yes it definitely is something...but time to set my mind on the greater 30% and 35% and make the best out of them! As what Xinhong said..Assiduity! HAHA. (Not bad right..you have taught me well!)

God is gracious and I can do ALL things through Him! The same God who pours His grace on them can do the same to me too! Amen.

Thank God for God!