Inspired :)

After reading your blog, I realize you are really strong. And I truly admire you for that. The thoughts that you penned - every word, every expression display depths which made me desire to experience and understand them myself. Your never-give-up spirit and the attitude to consistently do all things in love and be forward-looking is simply amazing. I'm inspired, and definitely impacted. You probably have experienced tons of darts and arrows to reach where you are right now. I'm inspired because you have ran and persevered in the race toward your upward call in faith, and will continue to run victoriously in boldness. Despite your perceived weaknesses, your trust in God have continued to motivate you in living out God's purpose for your life. And along the way, you have impacted so many lives around you. Though I seldom have the opportunity to talk to you now, see you in person, or even read your blog, you have created indelible footprints in my life. And I can really see you transforming countless lives in future. The impact you have will blow so many away, so much so that even you yourself will be in awe. I'm deeply provoked in my thoughts and spirit. Thank you so much! Thank you for being such a wonderful testimony for Jesus because you have impacted my life!:) And with that, thank You Jesus.

It's actually fun!

For the first time in my life, I'm looking forward to future ktv sessions. :)

Wonders of the Holy Spirit

Cell group was awesome today. Today's the first time we have it on a Friday. There was ministry and a short time of praying for each other after that. I shall blog about the short yet significant prayer session because it really impacted me. We are suppose to pray for our partner(s) whom we don't interact a lot with without asking each other for our individual needs. In other words, we are suppose to discern in the spirit and pray for each other. The last time I did it was last year in SOT! But SOT one was more "hiong" of course, which makes the process more exciting! Nonetheless, it's always good to revive something which I greatly missed.

I was initially nervous, but prayed and saw 3 words in my mind. I then prayed along the line of the 3 words and allow the holy spirit to lead. To my amazement, it was accurate! And praise God for my partner who prayed and spoke accurately into my life too! How amazing is that! I was really excited after that! The manifestations of the gifts of the holy spirit are really great testimonies of how real and tangible God is in our lives! I'm really more inspired and convicted to move more actively in the gifts of the holy spirit, because it is so easy to neglect them or even belittle the power of these gifts when the comfort of settling in the natural realm is deceitfully satisfying. This experience really reminded me that we should integrate the holy spirit in our lives. It should not be shocking to see miracles emerge out of the prayers we make. In fact, we should expect them in our everyday lives as we walk together with the holy spirit, who gives His power freely to us. We will miss out a large portion of an exciting supernatural walk with God if we were to constrain our lives to the natural realm. That will mean totally missing out on the power of the holy spirit, and losing the ability to influence and be an effective witness. I'm really inspired to understand the holy spirit better and to walk closer with him.

Bye Bye

I really really like this song - the sophistication of the lyrics, rhythm and tune. She's amazing.

Bye Bye by Mariah Carey
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamma's, daddy's, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up some times
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown full things separation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
Theres so much more left so say
If you were with me today face to face

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And we were here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye bye bye bye bye bye) x3

Bye bye

And you never got a chance to see how good I’ve done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
Am standing right here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye bye bye bye bye bye) x3

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamma's, daddy's, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye, bye

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this (I never knew it)
And everyday life goes on like (everyday of my life I wish)
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile” (I wish)
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by (I wish, I wish, I wish as time goes by)
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And we were here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Its hard to say bye bye bye bye bye bye
So come on somebody sing it with me
Wave your hands up high
Hey hey, this if for my peoples who just lost somebody
So this is for everybody
You put your hand to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye bye)

To my precious tree

I love my tree! I really really do. I really appreciate the time you devoted last night to talk to me though you could have spend the time studying for your exams. I'm truly grateful. I feel so much better and indeed the truth sets us free. There's nothing more important than to walk in truth and love, being honest with yourself, with the people around you, and definitely with God. Fears and insecurities in our lives can sometimes act as binding forces and hinder us from becoming who we really are and what we can be in God. And as a result of that, we end up putting up a facade of ourselves and conform to the norms of our environment. We end up living a life that is not of truth, and not of faith; suppressing the inner us - our thoughts and our feelings.

So siew! Just want to say you are the best sister and friend in the world and thanks for sowing into the salvation of your fruit. Your counsel has always been precious and most importantly, you know me the best! :) Love you sis!

And I'm finally blogging again! This is a product by me to my dearest friend Xia Jiao while I was bored mugging for my exams 2 weeks ago . The wonders of a tablet PC. So Jac, to complement yours, I'm displaying this on my blog too! :)



*And you still owe me photos! :)*

Chin Tao!

Guess who is this! She's a dearly missed friend called Chin Tao! She looks just so cool on this bike! Was just talking to her on MSN..and I realized I really miss her! One of my new year resolutions shall be to save up enough money and go Taiwan and visit her and other Taiwanese from SOT! She is a bubbly girl with a passionate heart to serve God! And she's the same age as me! Really miss hanging out with her and taking photos together!

Anyway, tomorrow is the first Christmas service! Can't wait! I believe it's gonna be more than fantastic!

Let the harvest come!

Today's catch was good! The journey was initially tough. There were barely any people around though there seem to be. Was kind of praying that Jesus would just appear in front of us and say, "Let down the nets into the deep", as how He told Simon Peter. Wheeee! That would be wonderful! But of course that didn't happen. Haha. Was also praying that our efforts will not be wasted. God was good! It drizzled but stopped. It was never heavy, and we could proceed on smoothly. Near to the last hour, things became more productive and we manage to get more "fish"! And seemingly good ones! Hopefully they are really so! Anyway, though it was really tiring, it was fun! Had a good time crapping and joking with Calvin. Haha. Let the harvest come! Amen.

Anyway, to Xinhong (author of the message below): Thanks for encouraging and always so willing to help! Thanks for always challenging me to reach greater heights and deny what others say are impossible! Thanks for being a source of inspiration and a channel of God's grace! Thanks for being such a great buddy in the Lord! :)

For Chew:

Courage is not the absence of fear - it is what you do inspite of your fear, discouragements and sadness. It's ok to screw up. What's not ok is to give up. Life's about making mistakes now and learning from them so that you won't make them next time. You are in this process of getting wiser and smarter. You are finding better ways to do things. You are going to have assiduity and bash right through whatever stands in your way. You have given me permission to push you to your limit. I promise you, I will. We will sit our asses down and learn to love what we do; we will jump out of bed every morning and have a hungry attitude. Inspire me too - inspire me to learn somemore.

Grades tell me nothing about your future. Your attitude does. You have a good attitude that is getting better with every semester. I have not seen a Chew Yan who has been more enthusiastic about her University education as I had seen this past term. You shall no longer waste your time. You set your mind on your goal of being excellent from the term starting 2 Jan 08 and we shall push forward until we reach our goal. Don't worry about when. Even if it is 10 years time, you would not stop until you reach your goal. I remind you that Jamie Dimon said something about there not being an age where you have to be successful at. People who are going to become successful will become successful because they have what it takes. Some earlier, some later (paraphrase). So I urge you to become that person, and not the grade chaser, because if you focus right, the results will follow.

You can do it. I absolutely believe that my grey matter is not superior to yours. It's just different. You are good at things I am utterly hopeless at. Keep the faith. Next year will be you best year yet.



Amen.

Giving it our all...

Today, I went street surveying with Gerald and Calvin. It was not bad considered we got 15 names in about 1.5hrs given the unforgiving rainy weather. We went to Yio Chu Kang and Ang Mo Kio areas. We were initially quite intimidated and scared to approach the people, and started off targeting the individuals who were on their own. But gradually we took turns asking and began to warm up. It was fun, making jokes along the way. Calvin came up with our whole act as "fishing", which brought about much humour throughout the whole process. Maybe it's the way he said it. But truly, as much as it sounded quite hilarious, we realized this is also a spiritual connotation. We are commanded to be fishers of man, to go the highways and byways to bring the people into the feast and celebration. We need to fish for people. And we need to be ever more urgent, hungry and desperate for the harvest! The next round shall be and will be better!

Anw went for dinner at BBQ Chicken at Cineleisure with yiqian, meiqi, daniel and maurice. Took some funny shots with meiqi again. Haha, we shall have an album full of our own stupid photos man! The first two was taken yesterday after prayer meeting.

Back to us again!

Pastor's message yesterday was tremendously impactful. Indeed it is the message for this season. At least for me, it is a very timely one. My revelation is to always always place my vision before my eyes. Let the vision be so distinctly visible, not just swimming or lurking ambiguously in the mind! Sometimes we thought we knew, but actually we don't. Or maybe we know or were once clear about it, but it became blur along the way and got mixed with doubts, and we lost the first touch of passion and excitement for it. And for the vision to fully materialize , it takes faith and prayer to birth it into the natural. All these takes time. If we can see it, we can have it! All things will fall into place at the right time.

Tradition --- Transitions --- Transformation!

REVELATIONS...hearing the spoken word..specially catered for our needs and situations...
Visions and dreams...We have to VISUALIZE, imagine..see it in the Spirit...
and finally...CONFESS the word, speak the vision...
breathe, walk and live the vision...like it has already happened...
and waiting for the spiritual realm to come to pass in the natural....
with FAITH and GRACE...
in PRAYER and FASTINGS...

awaiting a deeper revelation, greater dreams and visions, a more glorious transformation...

Rattling...

Yikes I hate the rain today! It damaged my berks =X But today was a pretty fruitful day considering the fact I woke up at 10am. Gave 2 bible studies and went for tuition at night. I still haven got down to my desired lifestyle of exercising as frequently as I can. I guess putting the intention in the morning is seriously not a good and wise idea. I will have to crucify every fibre of my being to make morning exercise happen! Unless God performs a miracle. Haha.

Anyway yiqian, I'm really proud of you. I'm encouraged by the fact that by the grace of God, you emerge stronger, wiser, and loving God more after all that you went through. Keep on keeping on! :)

And cheuk, thanks so muchy again for changing my bloggy skin!!! You rock! =)

The END...and the beginning!

Today marks the end of my exams! Finally the long awaited freedom has arrived. I have actually been looking forward to this break! And one of the things I want to do is to update my blog. Yihan said I backslided..from blogging. Haha. Yea I truly did. Well, met up with Jac and Joce after exams and we went to watch The Enchanted together. It's a great movie! At least that's what I feel. Definitely something worth watching. It's a good thing I didn't insist in my own opinions of it being an unrealistic and waste-time-and-money movie. I realize I like the "bimbotic" humor by all the fairytale characters who eventually transcend into human beings through some magical powers. And how each one of them kept emerging from the same drain which is situated in the middle of a busy road. They rock my socks!!! Extremely hilarious. Haha. It's one good movie that can make you laugh consistently throughout. And Joce, I still think your reaction toward the cockroaches is very funnily cute. Haha

As much as it may seem a little bizarre to blend both fantasy and the real world together, the movie speaks to me of God's common grace. The real world is the world out there, where you and I live in right now. A place constantly bombarded with negativity and hypocrisy. If it's impossible in the eyes of the world, it is impossible for you. It simply just can't be done. However, the fantasy world in the movie is likened to the kingdom of God. Not that God's kingdom is a fantasy or a realm of illusion of unrealism. The fantasy world in the movie believes that there is true love and there's no such thing as impossibilities. As long as one holds on to the child-like faith and keeps one's heart open to opportunities and new experiences, one can lead a carefree life filled with joy, hope and purpose. Who cares about what other people think? Think about your own life and building your life around your purpose! The true love we have is the agape love from God, and this is eternal, faithful and pure. In God, nothing shall be impossible. Despite what the world thinks, how the people around us despise us for our beliefs and committments, will you still hold on to your conviction? Will you still believe in God's promises and stand firm, even if they are spoken years ago? Will you still believe with all your heart that nothing is truly impossible if we put our circumstances in the hands of God? This came about from the scene when Giselle (the lead actress) felt angry for the first time with Robert (the lead actor) and realized what she was feeling was actually called anger. That was another "BLOND" moment. Haha! Amazing!

So my draw is it's an interesting movie! Quite emotionally satisfying I should say. You guys should watch! The next movie I want to watch is Golden Compass. W309 and E237 let's go watch together!

Anyway, we went to a Brazilian restaurant at Vivocity for lunch. I think the food is authentic! The pictures are not exactly very depictive of the taste. So it can't really do much talking. Haha..pardon the mediocre photographic skills.

Jac! Our first photo together...finally! Can't believe it right!

This drink is called Guanana..it's only sold in Brazil and Japan.
But most importantly, it helps people lose weight and trim their waists! :)

A truly satisfying day! I'm really excited for this holidays! This December shall be the best ever!